Various Random Blurbs - Angie's Peace Corps (Namibia) Adventure
Apr. 4th, 2006
10:11 pm - Various Random Blurbs
ORIGINALLY WRITTEN ON 4.2.06
*As I mentioned before in another entry, my parents sent me a picture of me at my college graduation in May. I put it up in my room & a few nights ago I stood in my room staring at that picture. It seems like that was so long ago. And I feel that the girl in that picture is not the same Angie as I am now. It's hard to explain. Maybe in the future I will be better able to explain myself, but for now all i can say is that it's still the same me. Yet it's not. It's only been 4 months since I left home but I've been through so many different things, been in so many different places, in so many different situations, with so many different thoughts. I guess maybe the best way to explain it is to say that I've lived a bunch of years' worth of things in a matter of just 4 months. Years' worth of experiences have been sandwiched into a time period of 4 months. Sometimes I think i've lived more in this time than I have during most of my life. Don't know if that makes any sense, but in my head it does.
*I'm turning into an old woman. I usually go to sleep around 10pm here. Alright, so it's not that early- but it's early for me. Back home I used to go to sleep around 12:30- after the Daily Show & Reno 911 or whatever other hilarious show Comedy Central was showing around that time. Ahh Comedy Central, I miss you. The real old folks are Sandra & Dylan- they start heading to bed around 9pm. And while I do have my own room, it's a very small 'house' so I usually go to my room when they do and am ready to sleep by like 10. I guess it's good though. For the first time in years, I'm actually getting in the recommended 8 hours of sleep. Plus it's not like there's much to do here anyway, so may as well go to sleep!
*When it comes to love... When does it stop being about accepting someone in all their glory & all their faults and start becoming blindness? They say love is blind. They also say love is about acceptance, faults and all. But i think sometimes it goes way beyond being acceptance, and you start to become blind. (I feel like Sex & the City. Maybe I'm going through withdrawals.)
*You can call me Betty Crocker. I'm tearing it up in the kitchen. Cooking various different things & so far still having fun with it. I think the time will come when it'll get old but since i never used to cook at home, it's still new & fun to me. Aside from dinner meals, I can also make bread (And damn good at it, if I may say so!), and a bunch of yummy deserts & delicious breakfast goodies. I make a killer chocolate cake. In fact I'm making one tomorrow for someone just because they liked it so much the first time around- they gave me all the ingredients and asked me to make them a whole nother one! So for all those who knew me before, watch out.. when I come back home I'm gonna take over you kitchen & make you explode w/ all the stuff I'm gonna be making for you.
*Ode to Bono- Why is Bono not world president? We should have a world president and it should be Bono. He is the only one who should fill that position. Once his term is over we should get rid of that position for good. Bono , if I ever got the chance to meet you, I'd just want to shake your hand. I don't wanna see the day that Bono leaves this earth. I am telling you right now, it's gonna be bigger than when John Lennon left us. Mark my words. Bono has done much for the world. Thanks for not ignoring/forgetting Africa's existence and for speaking for those whose voices cannot be heard. You rock my world- and not just musically.
*Namibia is 90% Christian, and very highly religious. I once heard that the people who are in most need, the people who have the least, who are in the worst conditions, are the ones who are the most religious. I am beginning to see it & I have to say that I completely agree w/ that statement. People are so religious, they take religion very seriously here. Well due to this & the fact that I personally am not so religious, people here have started to notice that I don't go to Church or talk about religion much. So i've had to face the questions about how I feel about God & religion. It's been strange- I've never been questioned about these things. And now here I am in a position where I am being flat out asked “how come you weren't at Church on Sunday? How come you don't go to Church?”. They have never asked in a rude or disrespectful manner- they are just curious. I can understand that. Still, it's a bit uncomfortable everytime I get asked that question. Perhaps it is because it is making me face the question & it's making me actually question myself on this subject, something I've never really done. I just answer that I believe in God, that I am Catholic, but that I just don't go to Church really. And it is that exactly which puzzles them. If I am Catholic & I believe in God, how come I don't go to Church? I say that I believe, but that I'm just not religious & it just doesn't make sense to people. I don't really have a good answer, a convincing answer, anything to offer that could really make sense to them. I just say that while I don't go to Church, I try to live my life in a way that I think God would approve of. Within myself, I feel that this is enough. The way i see it, shouldn't it matter more whether we live our lives in a good way, while being kind, doing what we can for humanity rather than whether we go to Church every Sunday? But I understand that for people who are religious, that is not enough, because religion says otherwise.
By the way, I hope that by touching on this subject I'm not offending anyone reading my journal, but it is after all my journal & I'm doing this for myself more so than any other reason, to gather my thoughts. So please bear with me.
I think what it comes down to is that I'm cynical about the Church thing. Throughout my life (and even here in Namibia) I've seen so many people who are so-called highly religious, and attend Church every Sunday and then turn around and do things that their religion considers sins. Like for example, how can you go to Church on Sunday and come Wednesday you come home & beat your wife? Or you are highly religious and you are married & go around sleeping with various people? Or you attend Church on Sunday & later in the week you are molesting a child. I have seen too many contradictions. Too many people are so-called highly religious but turn around once Sunday is gone & commit all sorts of sins- and I'm not talking little sins like lying. And I think that this is where my problem stems from. I've become cynical about it and I just don't see the need to be at Church. For me, it's more important to live your life in a good way. I would think that God or whoever would approve of me because of the way I've lived my life, regardless of whether i was at Church or not. Moving on...
*Ode to Peanut Butter- I'm absolutely obsessed with peanut butter since my arrival in Gibeon. During training I saw various PCVs eating apples with peanut butter & I thought 'well that's strange!'. Then I tried it & now I'm addicted. The strangest thing is that most of my life I have not liked peanut butter. It used to make me gag when I was a kid. When I was older I started being able to eat Reese's Pieces, and I thought they were delicious. But that's as far as my Peanut Butter indulgences went. Now I'm buying apples here just to eat peanut butter. I am in love. I have an apple with peanut butter everyday- whether it be for breakfast, lunch, or dinner- it's always part of my meal at some point in the day. The brand of p.b. I buy here is called “Yum Yum”. Haha! Yum yum indeed. Damn, just typing about this makes me want an apple w p.b.right now!
*I am out of time, so remind me to talk about Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs next time.